Translator - Kate from Dummytranslations
Editor - Chubby Dragon
2.1 Fuck
His vision was a bit blurry but he could vaguely see the luxurious chandelier above his head. This alone proved that his surroundings wasn’t lacking. But that wasn’t the point. The point was the numb itch in his body that felt like he was being bitten by ants. It went deep into his bone marrow and was unbearable.
His was incessantly sweating. His entire being was being tortured by the sense of emptiness inside his body. This feeling—
“Damn it. What is this situation?!” Hao Ritian, who had just transmigrated, really couldn’t help but say a foul word on experiencing the body’s situation.
“The mission scenario is being transferred. Host, please accept.” The system promptly caught up.
Hao Ritian endured this body’s peculiarity as he accepted the mission plot line. After understanding the mission plot line at full speed, let alone foul words, he even had the urge to commit murder.
The original owner of the body, named Mu Ziwen, he had transmigrated into was a college student suffering with autism. He was from a single-parent family and had only a mother. Ever since he was born, he had never met his father. In order to maintain the expenses at home, provide for her child to attend school and give him a healthy living environment, Mu Rou as a mother, had always been working very hard. There was nothing wrong till now.
The problem was that Mu Ziwen didn’t have a father and so, he was ostracized since kindergarten. He had a soft personality, so when others ostracized him, he simply didn’t have the courage to engage with people. Often, people would say that he didn’t have a father and call him a bastard, etc. Those unpleasant remarks entered his ears and into his heart, causing him to be increasingly self-abased and reclusive.
Mu Rou was a good mother, but it was very hard for a single mother like her to bring up a child. She had no one to help her and her work alone consumed all her energy. She cared for her child, however, she also knew what his personality was like. There would inevitably be places that were overlooked when she was busy. Unfortunately, Mu Ziwen would neither report nor complain to his mother. Overtime, his character formed this way.
When Mu Rou found out, it was too late. Mu Ziwen was already in junior high school at that time. If not for being bullied by his classmates and being unable to go home that night, Mu Rou might not even have known that her child was autistic. She had always considered her child to be merely introverted and that he just didn’t like to talk to others. Other than that, she really didn’t find anything different.
So, after knowing that her son had become autistic, Mu Rou’s pain and regret was unimaginable. After crying for a while, she quickly transferred her son to another school and placed all her efforts on him.
Mu Ziwen also strived for success. Though it was true he was autistic, his academic performance was extraordinarily good and he had a high IQ. He was admitted to Imperial University, a university which was well-known throughout the country. Imperial University was a sad place for Mu Rou, but for her son, she was willing to go through mountains of daggers and seas of flames. While her son attended Imperial University, she rented an apartment near the school to accompany him.
In order to drag her son out of his self-imposed autism, she put her foot down and forced him to continue living in the dorms. She wanted him to slowly engage with his classmates and develop a good relationship with them. If she could have known the later developments, she would’ve never allowed her son to go to Imperial University, even if it meant him having only a high school diploma for the rest of his life.
Hao Ritian mastered the plot related to the task and naturally understood why Mu Rou would regret to the point she wished she could kill herself.
This had something to do with Mu Ziwen’s never-before-seen father, and also the past events that Mu Rou didn’t want to think back on. In the beginning, Mu Rou was an outstanding graduate from Imperial University. After finishing school and starting to work, she fell in love and went through a sweet period of time. But she only realized when her boyfriend’s wife came to see her that she had unknowingly become the other woman.
As a proud person with strong self-esteem, Mu Rou simply couldn’t accept such a result. But she had rationality and didn’t get thrown into confusion because of this unexpected surprise. Rather, she took the initiative to investigate the truth of the matter. However, she didn’t have enough manpower and resources. She didn’t know that with the wife’s identity, the wife could do a lot of things.
The final outcome was a no-brainer. Mu Rou quit her job and stayed away from the Imperial capital, only discovering that she was pregnant after leaving. She didn’t want to get rid of the child. For her, who was an orphan, having a child connected to her by blood was something she couldn’t be happier about. She wouldn’t hesitate even if she had to raise the child all by herself.
Originally the pair of mother and son should have gone on living in harmony. But when Mu Ziwen was a sophomore, he suddenly went missing one day. Just as Mu Rou was about to go crazy from being unable to find him, Mu Ziwen came back by himself.
Mu Rou thought everything was fine since he came back. She didn’t think that her son’s recently alleviating condition would become more severe after he returned. In the past, he would still communicate with her but since the incident where he disappeared for a day, he became completely immersed in his own world. He became more and more reclusive and gloomy. Of course, Mu Rou couldn’t accept such a result.
So when her son went to school again, she secretly tailed him, wanting to see how he was doing there. After all, her son had autism. She couldn’t really feel at ease with him being at school alone and remain uncaring about anything. Before that instant, she would occasionally find time to secretly follow her son to school to make sure he didn’t have any problems.
But this time, Mu Rou noticed that her son was now being pointed at in school. Others would look at him with despise and ridicule and sometimes, she could hear some offensive remarks. There had never been such a situation before. As she watched her son enter school with hunched shoulders and his head down, choosing to walk around the corners alone, Mu Rou felt heartache and wished she could rush over, hold him in her arms and carry him away.
However, she wanted to know why things changed this way. So with tears streaming down her face, she followed her son. After seeing him enter the school building, she asked others’ about his situation and what she heard made her confused. What was this about her son being immoral and working as a prostitute outside? What was this about her son fooling around with men off campus? What was this about the school, in consideration of their image, going to make her son drop out? What were these people talking about?
Mu Rou wouldn’t believe her son was like how those people had described him to be, even if she died. As his mother, no one knew her son better than her.
But there was evidence. A student showed her a picture he’d taken out from some photos, out of curiosity. Those photos had appeared at the school bulletin board and many students had taken pictures of them with their phones. The above content was unbearable to look at. They were all scenes of Mu Ziwen sleeping with men. What’s more, it wasn’t just one man on the bed with him. The photos blurred all the key parts but the content they wanted to express couldn’t be clearer.
Mu Rou couldn’t deny it though she wanted to. But still, she didn’t believe her son was that kind of person. She noticed that the date stamps in the corner of the photographs showed the day her son went missing. She wasn’t stupid. With a little thinking, she knew that her son had been framed.
She gnashed her teeth in hatred of the person who framed her son and vowed to catch him. But the most urgent matter was her son’s psychological state. He could no longer stay in this school. She was all too clear of the impact an environment could do to a person. Her son was a living example. However, wouldn’t immediately having her son quit school indirectly confirm the authenticity of the rumors?
Mu Rou was in near despair. In her desperation, she thought of her son’s biological father. That man had never brought up his child, nor had he shouldered the responsibilities of a father. But at that critical moment, Mu Rou could only ask him for help.
Unfortunately, on her way to find his biological father, she met with a traffic accident. She was not rescued and immediately passed away.
Mu Ziwen wasn’t doing any better. He had severe autism from the onset and then something so big happened to him. He was pointed at, excluded and ridiculed. Classmates looked at him with disgust. Everyone hid from him as if he was a disgusting housefly. Under these circumstances, he suddenly learned that his only mother died in a car accident. This became the last straw.
Mu Ziwen chose to commit suicide.
Hao Ritian currently didn’t have the headspace to sympathize with this poor child because the time he transmigrated over to was precisely the day of Mu Ziwen’s disappearance. Combined with his physical abnormality, if he didn’t hurry and get out of this predicament, he was going to get forced!
“Fuck me. Why couldn’t you set the transmigration point to some earlier point of time?” It was clearly very suitable in the last world. Hao Ritian was furious.
“Because the transmigration point of every world is the node when the original owner’s fate changes. For Mu Ziwen, his fate trajectory changed today.” The system feebly explained.
The veins on Hao Ritian’s forehead was throbbing, “Then why couldn’t you go slightly earlier? Aren’t I obviously drugged? Even if you shift it to just before this body was drugged, it would still have been better than now, when I’m being forced, right?!”
System, “…”
Hao Ritian, “Don’t play dead. Talk to me.”
System, “Please take heed, host. There are four people coming to this room. Because the previous world’s task assessment was A+, in this world, the system can detect movements within 100 meters. According to the distance, they will arrive in another minute.”
Hao Ritian, “Fuck!”
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T/N: We didn't write this novel, We're just translating it. But I think the author probably wasn't very clear about autism when she wrote this and some information may be wrong. I hope no one gets too offended if the sicknesses are portrayed incorrectly or unrealistically. I also get pretty annoyed when some things are inaccurate. So, if this really bothers you, you can skip this arc and I'll make a summary at the end of the last chapter for this arc, chapter 36.
Editor - Chubby Dragon
2.1 Fuck
His vision was a bit blurry but he could vaguely see the luxurious chandelier above his head. This alone proved that his surroundings wasn’t lacking. But that wasn’t the point. The point was the numb itch in his body that felt like he was being bitten by ants. It went deep into his bone marrow and was unbearable.
His was incessantly sweating. His entire being was being tortured by the sense of emptiness inside his body. This feeling—
“Damn it. What is this situation?!” Hao Ritian, who had just transmigrated, really couldn’t help but say a foul word on experiencing the body’s situation.
“The mission scenario is being transferred. Host, please accept.” The system promptly caught up.
Hao Ritian endured this body’s peculiarity as he accepted the mission plot line. After understanding the mission plot line at full speed, let alone foul words, he even had the urge to commit murder.
The original owner of the body, named Mu Ziwen, he had transmigrated into was a college student suffering with autism. He was from a single-parent family and had only a mother. Ever since he was born, he had never met his father. In order to maintain the expenses at home, provide for her child to attend school and give him a healthy living environment, Mu Rou as a mother, had always been working very hard. There was nothing wrong till now.
The problem was that Mu Ziwen didn’t have a father and so, he was ostracized since kindergarten. He had a soft personality, so when others ostracized him, he simply didn’t have the courage to engage with people. Often, people would say that he didn’t have a father and call him a bastard, etc. Those unpleasant remarks entered his ears and into his heart, causing him to be increasingly self-abased and reclusive.
Mu Rou was a good mother, but it was very hard for a single mother like her to bring up a child. She had no one to help her and her work alone consumed all her energy. She cared for her child, however, she also knew what his personality was like. There would inevitably be places that were overlooked when she was busy. Unfortunately, Mu Ziwen would neither report nor complain to his mother. Overtime, his character formed this way.
When Mu Rou found out, it was too late. Mu Ziwen was already in junior high school at that time. If not for being bullied by his classmates and being unable to go home that night, Mu Rou might not even have known that her child was autistic. She had always considered her child to be merely introverted and that he just didn’t like to talk to others. Other than that, she really didn’t find anything different.
So, after knowing that her son had become autistic, Mu Rou’s pain and regret was unimaginable. After crying for a while, she quickly transferred her son to another school and placed all her efforts on him.
Mu Ziwen also strived for success. Though it was true he was autistic, his academic performance was extraordinarily good and he had a high IQ. He was admitted to Imperial University, a university which was well-known throughout the country. Imperial University was a sad place for Mu Rou, but for her son, she was willing to go through mountains of daggers and seas of flames. While her son attended Imperial University, she rented an apartment near the school to accompany him.
In order to drag her son out of his self-imposed autism, she put her foot down and forced him to continue living in the dorms. She wanted him to slowly engage with his classmates and develop a good relationship with them. If she could have known the later developments, she would’ve never allowed her son to go to Imperial University, even if it meant him having only a high school diploma for the rest of his life.
Hao Ritian mastered the plot related to the task and naturally understood why Mu Rou would regret to the point she wished she could kill herself.
This had something to do with Mu Ziwen’s never-before-seen father, and also the past events that Mu Rou didn’t want to think back on. In the beginning, Mu Rou was an outstanding graduate from Imperial University. After finishing school and starting to work, she fell in love and went through a sweet period of time. But she only realized when her boyfriend’s wife came to see her that she had unknowingly become the other woman.
As a proud person with strong self-esteem, Mu Rou simply couldn’t accept such a result. But she had rationality and didn’t get thrown into confusion because of this unexpected surprise. Rather, she took the initiative to investigate the truth of the matter. However, she didn’t have enough manpower and resources. She didn’t know that with the wife’s identity, the wife could do a lot of things.
The final outcome was a no-brainer. Mu Rou quit her job and stayed away from the Imperial capital, only discovering that she was pregnant after leaving. She didn’t want to get rid of the child. For her, who was an orphan, having a child connected to her by blood was something she couldn’t be happier about. She wouldn’t hesitate even if she had to raise the child all by herself.
Originally the pair of mother and son should have gone on living in harmony. But when Mu Ziwen was a sophomore, he suddenly went missing one day. Just as Mu Rou was about to go crazy from being unable to find him, Mu Ziwen came back by himself.
Mu Rou thought everything was fine since he came back. She didn’t think that her son’s recently alleviating condition would become more severe after he returned. In the past, he would still communicate with her but since the incident where he disappeared for a day, he became completely immersed in his own world. He became more and more reclusive and gloomy. Of course, Mu Rou couldn’t accept such a result.
So when her son went to school again, she secretly tailed him, wanting to see how he was doing there. After all, her son had autism. She couldn’t really feel at ease with him being at school alone and remain uncaring about anything. Before that instant, she would occasionally find time to secretly follow her son to school to make sure he didn’t have any problems.
But this time, Mu Rou noticed that her son was now being pointed at in school. Others would look at him with despise and ridicule and sometimes, she could hear some offensive remarks. There had never been such a situation before. As she watched her son enter school with hunched shoulders and his head down, choosing to walk around the corners alone, Mu Rou felt heartache and wished she could rush over, hold him in her arms and carry him away.
However, she wanted to know why things changed this way. So with tears streaming down her face, she followed her son. After seeing him enter the school building, she asked others’ about his situation and what she heard made her confused. What was this about her son being immoral and working as a prostitute outside? What was this about her son fooling around with men off campus? What was this about the school, in consideration of their image, going to make her son drop out? What were these people talking about?
Mu Rou wouldn’t believe her son was like how those people had described him to be, even if she died. As his mother, no one knew her son better than her.
But there was evidence. A student showed her a picture he’d taken out from some photos, out of curiosity. Those photos had appeared at the school bulletin board and many students had taken pictures of them with their phones. The above content was unbearable to look at. They were all scenes of Mu Ziwen sleeping with men. What’s more, it wasn’t just one man on the bed with him. The photos blurred all the key parts but the content they wanted to express couldn’t be clearer.
Mu Rou couldn’t deny it though she wanted to. But still, she didn’t believe her son was that kind of person. She noticed that the date stamps in the corner of the photographs showed the day her son went missing. She wasn’t stupid. With a little thinking, she knew that her son had been framed.
She gnashed her teeth in hatred of the person who framed her son and vowed to catch him. But the most urgent matter was her son’s psychological state. He could no longer stay in this school. She was all too clear of the impact an environment could do to a person. Her son was a living example. However, wouldn’t immediately having her son quit school indirectly confirm the authenticity of the rumors?
Mu Rou was in near despair. In her desperation, she thought of her son’s biological father. That man had never brought up his child, nor had he shouldered the responsibilities of a father. But at that critical moment, Mu Rou could only ask him for help.
Unfortunately, on her way to find his biological father, she met with a traffic accident. She was not rescued and immediately passed away.
Mu Ziwen wasn’t doing any better. He had severe autism from the onset and then something so big happened to him. He was pointed at, excluded and ridiculed. Classmates looked at him with disgust. Everyone hid from him as if he was a disgusting housefly. Under these circumstances, he suddenly learned that his only mother died in a car accident. This became the last straw.
Mu Ziwen chose to commit suicide.
Hao Ritian currently didn’t have the headspace to sympathize with this poor child because the time he transmigrated over to was precisely the day of Mu Ziwen’s disappearance. Combined with his physical abnormality, if he didn’t hurry and get out of this predicament, he was going to get forced!
“Fuck me. Why couldn’t you set the transmigration point to some earlier point of time?” It was clearly very suitable in the last world. Hao Ritian was furious.
“Because the transmigration point of every world is the node when the original owner’s fate changes. For Mu Ziwen, his fate trajectory changed today.” The system feebly explained.
The veins on Hao Ritian’s forehead was throbbing, “Then why couldn’t you go slightly earlier? Aren’t I obviously drugged? Even if you shift it to just before this body was drugged, it would still have been better than now, when I’m being forced, right?!”
System, “…”
Hao Ritian, “Don’t play dead. Talk to me.”
System, “Please take heed, host. There are four people coming to this room. Because the previous world’s task assessment was A+, in this world, the system can detect movements within 100 meters. According to the distance, they will arrive in another minute.”
Hao Ritian, “Fuck!”
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T/N: We didn't write this novel, We're just translating it. But I think the author probably wasn't very clear about autism when she wrote this and some information may be wrong. I hope no one gets too offended if the sicknesses are portrayed incorrectly or unrealistically. I also get pretty annoyed when some things are inaccurate. So, if this really bothers you, you can skip this arc and I'll make a summary at the end of the last chapter for this arc, chapter 36.
8 comments
Thank you translator for all the efforts!!! I discovered this story even before the first translation and was waiting for it since then so thank so much<3
ReplyDeleteTHANK YOU FOR THE TRANSLATION! ALL RIGHT, MANY AUTHORS RARELY UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY ARE WRITING
ReplyDeletePost Traumatic Stress Disorder is often very similar to autism in children, showing itself through an inability to speak well or communicate, look others directly in the eyes, have repetitive patterns of play without external engagement, emotional development issues, tantrums,and more. It's difficult even for physicians to tell the difference unless they know abuse and trauma have occurred. Severe bullying (aka physical, mental, and emotional abuse) and isolation can cause PTSD in anyone, much less children.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the chapters
ReplyDeleteThank you for translating! I know it must feel iffy when you have to translate something you know may be incorrect to stay true to the novel content.
ReplyDeleteI noticed that in China, the general populace tend to use the word “autism” as a broad, overarching term for multiple forms of illness, particularly pertaining to any that involves social withdrawal, reclusiveness, inability to communicate, and avoidance. They use the word autism to represent an illness caused by experience in upbringing that affects social aspects and personality of the individual, whereas we consider autism a genetic and potentially trauma-related illness in the womb, not an effect of life experiences growing up. This misconception of autism as a social disorder is quite prevalent in China so I also can’t blame the author.. it’s unfortunate about the misunderstanding, but I will read this arc, keeping in mind that their culture has a different perception and definition of autism. Anyway, thank you for translating and I hope readers will give it a chance despite the different representation of what they perceive autism to be.
Autism as C web novel plot device strikes again! I also notice that autistic characters in C web novels are almost always mentally/developmentally delayed. It's like a grab bag of whatever the author thinks fit the story. Meh.
ReplyDeleteThanks for translating this even when it irks you ^^;;
i do not mind, the story is good, but ty for the heads up and the care you are showing
ReplyDeleteThanks for the hard work love the story ^_^
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